Losing

Tenth Avenue North is singing Losing in my head as the thunder rolls outside my window this morning. This phrase…

Oh Father won’t you forgive them
They don’t know what they’ve been doing
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losing

Nobody likes to be the loser. I know I don’t… And I didn’t realize that I felt like the one losing until I started unpacking this song. As I am thinking, “Lord, I don’t understand why this song this morning. I’m not losing as far as I know…” The Holy Spirit speaks to my heart and reminds me. Oh yeah… That.

Clear as day, God has placed a picture in my mind of a situation I’ve been dealing with at work and my behavior and attitude toward it. And I DO feel like the one losing. The thoughts run rampant in my mind about who is to blame for this, and if they hadn’t done that maybe things would be different. SO… I guess there are people I need to forgive, whether they know it or not.

Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you – Ephesians 4:32

God forgave me through the immeasurable gift of His son. I don’t have a choice but to put all of this aside. To forgive those who make me feel like I’m losing, who are hurting others and causing painful situations over which we have no control. Another bit of lyric from this song jumps out at me…

But truth be told it doesn’t matter if they’re sorry or not
Freedom comes when we surrender to the sound…
Of mercy and Your grace
Father, send Your angels down

It doesn’t matter whether they’re sorry or even aware of the hurt they’re causing me and others. There is freedom in forgiveness! I forgive because I am forgiven, because forgiving them frees me to move on.

Forgiveness is for me, not them. It sets my heart right with God, and gets me back to the place I want to be. Like the song says, “This is love. This is hate. We all have a choice to make.”

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