I lost a song. I don’t know how, but it was there and now it’s gone. I had it all written down, saved it, and when I opened it this morning, it all disappeared and I can’t get the app to bring it back! All the words are gone. The chord structure is gone. Everything.
It’s a song a wrote almost two years ago while recovering from cervical spine surgery, and it was one of the few songs that I had nearly completed. All the parts were there, I just didn’t have the confidence at the time to finish it. And now it’s gone. I can’t even recall the title or some of the words. I was scrolling through when I saw it and thought, “oh wow, I had forgotten that one.” I pulled it up to read it, and it disappeared.
I feel so sad… Like a little piece of me is gone. Is this a little taste of what it would be like if God took away the music from my head every morning? From the beginning, I wondered if I would wake up one day and hear silence. I pray that never happens. It’s a part of me, a part of who I am.
The words in my head right now are set to the tune of Jason Mraz’s song I Won’t Give Up.
“I won’t give up on you, even if you want me to, ’cause I know you’re worth it.”
I am so thankful that God won’t give up on me, even when I think He should. When I was about 13 or 14, my cousin gave me a framed plaque that said, “Be patient. God’s not finished with me yet.” After all these years, and all that has transpired in my life, God is still with me, still pursuing me, still upholding me with his mighty right hand. He is not done with me yet. And I AM worth it!!!
So If my song is lost, then I know God will give me a new song to replace it. A better song. Or He will return it to me, new and improved. Because He never gives up on us!!!