All I Can Do

As she prepares to get on the bus with the rest of the recruits, I stand in the pre-dawn light, pain gripping my heart. There aren’t enough tissues in the world (or my purse) to catch my grief as it slides down my face. How will I ever let her go?? She’s my only daughter! What if she never comes back????

I come awake still feeling that adrenaline rush of pain and sorrow, taking a moment to realize that it was only a dream. One that is still with me. No, my daughter did not join the military, though she did get married and move to another country. And obviously I miss her and, on some level, worry that she will never return. I know that she’s living her life… The one she’s chosen, that she feels God has called her to, and I’m proud of her for that. Her’s is the joy in the middle of my pain.

Funny that I was having such a painful, emotional dream but woke up with a Mikeschair song, All I Can Do (Thank You) in my head… A song of thanks and praise. Listen here.

All I can do is thank You
For this life I never deserved
Wanna thank You for the grace
I know I don’t have to earn
You love me, You love me
Your mercy is proof
All I can do is say thank You
All I can do is say thank You

I’m thankful God woke me up with this song this morning. He’s ever teaching me to be thankful in the middle of whatever is going on in my life. I don’t deserve this crazy, wonderful life I have, but I am so very grateful for it. I am thankful for His grace and mercy that I don’t have to earn. God loves me. Period. And I know there’s nothing I can do to make Him love me more or less.

I’m so thankful that I live in an age of Skype, Viber, Facebook, texting, and so much more. Though Sharon lives so far away, we can talk any time, or text any time. She’s expecting her first baby this Fall. Another reason for joy in our lives. My little Skype grandchild! And all I can do is say, “THANK YOU!!!”

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2 thoughts on “All I Can Do

  1. Just think about it. You raised such a precious little girl into a strong minded, beautiful, adventurous God fearing young women. Yes, she is living her life now but it is only because you provided her the tools to do so. I can still see that little precious Sharon as I remember her when you guys lived in Houston and in the visits I made to Kentucky. I never saw the course in life that she has taken coming but as long as she is servicing Christ and living to help others then that is all you could wish for. You have been and continue to be so blessed!!

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    1. Absolutely blessed beyond measure. I find it so strange to be in this stage of life…with grown children living good healthy productive lives. Sometimes I think, “did I do that??” And the answer is always no…God did!!!! 🙂 thanks for the props…sometimes a mom needs that!!

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