Dear Guilt

God won’t let me sleep. When I hit the snooze on my alarm this morning, I heard a voice say my name. So loudly and strongly that my eyes popped open. “Martha!”

I got up.

There is no guilt here
There is no shame
No pointing fingers
There is no blame

These are the words I heard in the middle of the night and again when I hit the snooze. Matthew West’s voice quietly singing these words from his song, Only Grace… Not the whole song, just these words.

I’m one of those people who feels guilty much of the time, even when I shouldn’t. These words are shining a bright light on my misplaced guilt, reminding me that “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.”- Romans 8:1

So, today, when I step into my office and look around at all that must be done in the next three weeks before I retire, I must remember these words. There is no guilt here. There is no shame in retiring. Nobody is pointing fingers at me, nobody is placing blame on me for walking away and leaving it for someone else to do. Just my old friend, Guilt, following me to work.

The chorus to this song says it all…

There’s only grace
There’s only love
There’s only mercy
And believe me it’s enough
Your sins are gone
Without a trace
There’s nothing left now
There’s only grace

Dear Guilt,

I’m sorry to have to tell you this, but you are no longer welcome in my home, at my workplace, or in my life. I have a new friend. You don’t know her, though I’m sure you’ve heard her name… Grace. She will be my constant companion in the coming weeks and months along with her friends, Love and Mercy. I don’t have time or space for you anymore. I’m sure you have others who are willing to let you hang around.

I’m glad God called my name and wouldn’t let me play hooky this morning.

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