The sun shining through my studio window belies the sadness I feel. I can’t explain why I feel sad today… I don’t really have a reason. Maybe melancholy is a better word, but it’s there nonetheless.
I woke up with Love & The Outcome singing in my head. The song is King of My Heart, and it, too, is falsely cheerful in my head. The line I’m hearing is
Bigger than any battle I’m facing
Better than anything I’ve been chasing
While I know that this is indisputably true, and I will always believe that God can and will do more than I ever could think or ask, I somehow have gotten to mid-afternoon and I’m still “blue.”
I miss my kids. I know that’s part of it. They’ve been heavy on my mind today, and I’ve been praying for them all. I’ve been working on the quilt for my newest grandchild who should be making an appearance sometime in the next 3 or 4 weeks. They live around the world in another country and it’s been hard for this momma to NOT be with her daughter through all this. She’s doing great, and everything’s going according to schedule. But I miss her anyway.
God IS bigger than anything I’m facing. He IS better than anything I’m chasing after in this world. I think he placed this song in my head so he could remind me of these things, and keep it in the front of my mind. It’s as if The Lord is saying, “Keep your eyes up here!” Eyes on the prize!
Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:13-14