I know I’m not strong enough to be
Everything that I’m supposed to be
I give up
I’m not strong enough
Hands of mercy won’t you cover me
Lord right now I’m asking you to be
For the both of us
These lyrics from Matthew West’s Strong Enough have been stuck in my head since the wee small hours. Hours when I was supposed to be sleeping. Each and every word is SO true for my life right now. Because I’m not strong… Not by a long shot. I’m one of those people who can appear to be strong. In truth, people tell me all the time that I’m a “strong woman,” but I am not! I appreciate people putting their faith in me, and depending on me to be there for them, to be strong for them, but may I just say that I’m tired?
It would be so easy for me to withdraw from those around me, those I love, and escape from being needed so very much. I vacillate between wanting to hide from the next person who asks something of me and feeling like “if I don’t do it, who will?” And then there’s the argument that Jesus himself took time away. He knew when he needed to recharge. And he did just that by taking time to talk to his Father!
Today is Sunday, the sabbath day. A day of rest. A day holy to The Lord. I think today I will pull away from the world for a little while… Talk to my heavenly Father. Listen to what He has to say to me. Rest. Recharge. Unplug. Find the “strong enough” in me that can only come from God. Because “I know I’m not strong enough to be everything that I’m supposed to be” without God.
Featured image taken October 2013, Rabat Morocco. These are the strongest women I know!!