“It doesn’t matter!” -Grace

I hear a voice, and He calls me “redeemed” when others say I’ll never be enough.

This line from the MercyMe song, Greater, woke me up this morning. Just this line. Isn’t it a wonderful thing that God calls us “redeemed” no matter what anyone else says of us? Even ourselves. As this line played on a loop in my mind while I went about my wake-up routine, the Holy Spirit spoke to my heart and said those same words…. Even ourselves.

I am my own worst enemy. I am self-everything… -Critical, -absorbed, -serving, -deprecating, -fillintheblank. Insert the word “self” in front of each of those words and many others. I have always been too quick to tear myself down. But that’s not what God says of me.

There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. -Romans 8:1

Like the song says, “there will be days I lose the battle. But Grace says that it doesn’t matter because the cross already won the war!” I love the full definition of the word redeemed at Merriam-Webster.com. Please read it and know that Christ has done this for you. And me!!!

Full Definition of REDEEM

transitive verb
1
a  :  to buy back :  repurchase

b:  to get or win back

2
:  to free from what distresses or harms: as 

a:  to free from captivity by payment of ransom


b:  to extricate from or help to overcome something detrimental


c:  to release from blame or debt :clear


d:  to free from the consequences of sin

3
:  to change for the better :  reform
4
5
a  :  to free from a lien by payment of an amount secured thereby

(1):  to remove the obligation of by payment <the United States Treasury redeems savings bonds on demand>

(2)  :  to exchange for something of value <redeem trading stamps>

c:  to make good :fulfill

6
a  :  to atone for :  expiate <redeem an error>

(1):  to offset the bad effect of

(2)  :  to make worthwhile :  retrieve

Please have a listen to this wonderful song, be prepared to dance. Greater.
Please click here to read Greater from a different perspective written in August last year.

No More.

Y’all, my struggle with low self-esteem has been the thorn in my side my whole life, along with food (though I think they go hand in hand.) Just when I think I’ve got a grip on it and things are going well, something or someone comes along and shakes things up, stirring up old feelings and fears. No more.

The song in my head this morning is from Greater by MercyMe. Maybe God is trying to build my self-esteem while I sleep!

Bring your doubts
Bring your fears
Bring your hurt
Bring your tears
There’ll be no condemnation here
You are holy, righteous and redeemed.

Every time I fall
There’ll be those who will call me
A mistake
Well, that’s ok

‘Cause I hear a voice and He calls me redeemed
When others say I’ll never be enough
And greater is the One living inside of me
Than he who is living in the world

One thing I know without a doubt… I matter to God. My husband may get busy and preoccupied, my kids may be busy living their lives in other places, my friends may be working or dealing with their own issues, and it doesn’t mean they don’t love me. They do… so very much! But GOD…

🕑Always has time for me
👂Wants to hear what I have to say
☺️Waits patiently for me to come to him
❤️Understands my pain even when I don’t understand it myself
👓Knows where I hurt
🌷Cares about me, the real me
👼Places people in my life just when I need them most
💔Protects my heart

I want to be a person who can be used by God to do those things in some small way for other people. After all, I am holy, righteous and redeemed by the blood of Jesus Christ. I put my “self” in His hands, because he “esteems” me as his child, and loves me with an everlasting love. Even when I don’t love myself very much at all!

There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. – Romans 8:1

Click here to listen to Greater by MercyMe

I wrote about this song a few weeks ago from a completely different perspective. Click here to read Greater.

Featured image: Sunny Side, acrylic on canvas, 16 x 20. I painted it originally as a 4 x 6 inch piece on the lid of a box. Definitely one of my favorites.

Who am I?

Self-esteem. My estimation of myself, how I perceive myself, what I think of me. My struggle with low self-esteem has been the thorn in my side my whole life, along with food (though I think they go hand in hand.) Just when I think I’ve got a grip on it and things are going well, something or someone comes along and shakes things up, stirring up old feelings and fears.

I’ve had this song in my head for two mornings in a row. The same lyric from Greater by MercyMe. Maybe God is trying to build my self-esteem while I sleep!

Bring your doubts
Bring your fears
Bring your hurt
Bring your tears
There’ll be no condemnation here
You are holy, righteous and redeemed.

Every time I fall
There’ll be those who will call me
A mistake
Well, that’s ok

‘Cause I hear a voice and He calls me redeemed
When others say I’ll never be enough
And greater is the One living inside of me
Than he who is living in the world

One thing I know without a doubt… I matter to God. My husband may get busy and preoccupied, my kids may be busy living their lives in other places, my friends may be working or dealing with their own issues, and it doesn’t mean they don’t love me. They do so very much! But GOD

Always has time for me
Wants to hear what I have to say
Waits patiently for me to come to him
Understands my pain even when I don’t understand it myself
Knows where I hurt
Cares about me, the real me
Places people in my life just when I need them most
Protects my heart

I want to be a person who can be used by God to do those things in some small way for other people. After all, I am holy, righteous and redeemed by the blood of Jesus Christ. I put my “self” in His hands, because he “esteems” me as his child, and loves me with an everlasting love. Even when I don’t love myself very much at all!

There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. – Romans 8:1

Click here to listen to Greater by MercyMe

I wrote about this song a few weeks ago from a completely different perspective. Click here to read Greater.

Tick Tock

I’m always running out of time. There are only so many hours in a day, and I never seem to have enough. Not that I’m held to deadlines so much as needing more time to finish what I start. Life gets in the way. Or I get lazy and distracted. Or I get too caught up in the details, and then the clock is pointing its finger at me, guilting me into moving faster or moving on. One of the joys of retirement has been to put my wristwatch away. To relax into the days and do what I can without killing myself to get it all done now. I’m still working on that.

Priorities. I love to do so many things, it’s hard to do them all on a regular basis. Creative processes like painting, writing, music, cooking, sewing. Sometimes, it’s the tyranny of the urgent. The things that require my attention immediately get done first. Then there’s another fire to put out, and before I know it, I’m a slave to the “urgent” in my life. Because the clock is running out.

But “our God is greater. Our God is stronger.” Our God is higher than any other. His clock never runs out on me. He always has time for me. He is always waiting for me in the mornings, ready to listen and ready to share what he wants me to hear and know. “Our God is healer, awesome in power.” I’m working hard to get on God’s time clock and off my own. The people in my life are so much more important than the things in my life. So, more and more, I stop what I’m “doing” so that I can just “be” with whoever needs my attention now.

Of course, that means things don’t get finished on schedule sometimes, but they will get finished eventually. My walls will get painted. There’s really no hurry except for the schedule I set for myself. I save the reading for when I’m waiting or when I need to sit for a few minutes. I work on my new grandbaby’s quilt when I’m riding in the car or waiting in the doctor’s office or watching television. It all gets done. Kingdom things are more important than MY things. I’m trying to be more self-less and less self-ish.

Okay, so now I’m late and I need to go jump in the shower. Tick tock!

I woke up with Chris Tomlin singing Our God in my head this morning. Click here to listen.

Greater

Today is “Throwback Thursday” in Facebook world. TBT. I love seeing all the old pics and remembering people way back when. My sister used to say “in the olden days.” Thirty years ago isn’t really the olden days, but from my perspective this morning, it was a long time ago.

The featured image is my TBT picture today. My son, my niece, and my nephew taken in 1983. Aren’t they adorable? Precious? I just want to eat them up! I look at this picture and see all the love we lavished on them when they were little, all the promise in those little faces, all the hope embodied in their small selves. And when I look at them today, I am overwhelmed by the goodness of God!

All have had major obstacles to overcome in their lifetime thus far. But all three are healthy and strong, praise God! All three if them are excellent parents with (almost) 9 children between them. All are well-educated and have excellent careers, all have strong and loving marriages to wonderful people, and they’re all serving others. And I still think they’re adorable!

I look at their kids now and see these three little cherubs in their children’s faces, and I wonder if God feels the same way about us. Does he look at his children here on this planet and see his face in us? Does he recognize his smile, his eyes, himself in the way we love others? The song in my head this morning is Greater from MercyMe. This song makes me get up and dance! I love these lines…

‘Cause I hear a voice and He calls me redeemed
When others say I’ll never be enough
And greater is the One living inside of me
Than he who is living in the world

He IS greater. And if he’s living in me, then he will see himself in me. Just like these precious children I’m so proud of and whom I love so much. From generation to generation. Psalms 79:13 says “But we your people, the sheep of your pasture, will give thanks to you forever; from generation to generation we will recount your praise.”

There’ll be days I lose the battle
Grace says that it doesn’t matter
‘Cause the cross already won the war

He’s greater!!

Please have a listen to this song… Just be prepared to dance! Greater