It’s Not About Me

Satan wants you to quit praying. He wants you to believe God isn’t paying one whit of attention to you. That He’s moved on without you. That you don’t matter. There’s only one thing to do with that. Pray twice as much. With twice the faith. And a thousand times the thanks. -Beth Moore

This is one of those mornings that my mind is all over the map, but everything in it is screaming at me to pray. Focus on others. What is God calling me to? The song in my head is Start A Fire by Unspoken.

This world can be cold and bitter
Feels like we’re in the dead of winter
Waiting on something better
But am I really gonna hide forever?

Over and over again
I hear Your voice in my head
Let Your light shine, let Your light shine for all to see

Start a fire in my soul
Fan the flame and make it grow
So there’s no doubt or denying
Let it burn so brightly
That everyone around can see
That it’s You, that it’s You that we need
Start a fire in me

At the same time, I had words in my head that prompted me to write this verse…

It’s not about me
It’s not about me
It’s not about my fears and failures
It’s not about my hopes and plans
It’s not about what I want or need
It’s not about my desires or dreams
It’s not about who I want to be
It’s not about me

Cause if I know you, Lord
You know my every thought
And if I love you, Lord
Your love fills up my heart
If I remember You
You will remember me
And fill my every need

The above quote from Beth Moore came from an email I received this morning, after being awakened by Start A Fire and writing the verse. In that blog post, she also said, “Intercession for others becomes a guard against the narcissism of this present culture.” If I pray for others, it keeps me from thinking too much of myself, because it’s NOT about me.

It’s so incredible to me how God has thrown all this at me at the same time this morning!!! I can’t ignore it. Pray! Pray now. Keep praying. Pray for others. Pray for myself. Pray continually. Pray with thanksgiving.

Start a fire in me, Lord, because it’s not about me. Don’t let my prayers or my love for others grow cold, dull or boring. Light me up!!! Set my heart on fire for others who need You so desperately. Though it’s nearly overwhelming, thank You for throwing it all at me this morning. Help me not to let You down. Amen.

Click here to listen to Start A Fire by Unspoken.

Click here to read the full blog post on Prayer from Living Proof Ministries.

I chose the featured image because it reminds me of Matthew 6:26… “Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” It is oil on 140 lb paper, 2.5″ by 3.5″, artist trading card.

Take it Away!

I don’t know if I woke up and this is what was in my head, or if what I heard woke me up. Either way, it was exactly 3:00 this morning, and both of these songs were singing on the stereo in my mind… At the same time…

Toby Mac. “If You wanna steal my show, I’ll sit back and watch you go. If You got somethin’ to say, go on and take it away… My dreams, my fears, my family, my career. It’s all Yours, God.”

J.J. Weeks Band. “Let them see You in me. Let them hear You when I speak. Let them feel You when I sing. Let them see You, Just let them see You in me.”

I was instantly wide awake. It even felt like my usual wake up time and I thought, “I’ll just get up and go write.” After I looked at the clock, I knew I’d be in trouble today if I did that… I need sleep as much as the next person. More if I’m going to be reading music this morning. So I climbed back in bed and said a short prayer that the music would still be there this morning… That I wouldn’t forget the songs by dawn.

When I opened my eyes, it was daylight (unusual for me) and I panicked a little. But there they were… Still singing. And I know why these are the songs today. I am faced with some decisions in the coming months. I’ve been weighing my options, and praying for direction.

These words are exactly the reminder that I needed that I am not the one in control of my life, my future, my decisions. It’s all God’s show, not mine. What I do or don’t do is on His shoulders, not mine. And I just need to relax… Chil-lax as one of my boys says… And let Him do the work in me that He has prepared in advance for me to do.

As long as others can see Him in me, can hear Him when I speak, can feel Him in my music, then I’m on the right track no matter what I do. I like Rick Warren’s statement in What On Earth Am I Here For? “It’s not about me.” (As much as I’d like it to be!) It’s about what I do in this life that impacts other people. And it forces me to ask myself some pretty scary questions.

Have I loved others enough? Have I served others enough? How much of what I’ve done in my years on this planet has been for myself instead of others? Maybe I need to be asking these questions of my children and my husband. Either way, I know that whatever my future holds, I want to serve God in it, in whatever capacity He will have me. It’s all Yours, God… Take it away!!